i could live tomorrow

Greetings. Traveler from beyond the fog. I Am Melina. I offer you an accord. Use it to traverse great distances.

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My words

I'm staring into endless void
Of starlight and of hope devoid,
But when I try to break away,
The skies look like this pit, the same.

Upon its gates the trial's held,
And I'm behind defendant's stand.
I prosecute, I judge, object,
But I will not myself defend.

"Not guilty" verdict was my bane,
Like groundhog's day returned again,
And now, not to overextend,
I'll put this fallacy to end.

I'm tired of seeing myself again
Each passing day grows my disdain
But now I'm ready to repent
And discontinue my descent.

Hypocrisy, and lies, and more...
All, that I usually abhor,
Has rooted deeply in my soul,
And undermined my better goal.

I'm not religious, but believe
In greater cause, for which to live
But what I've done and what I thought
Betrayed this dream that I have sought.

The ancient sins of human kin
Have left their marks upon my skin
And I am tainted by mistakes.
No turning back, there's no retake.

It's easier to count those falls,
Of which became I thoughtless thrall,
Than seek rare virtue, being made
By these obese and spoiled hands.

When did it start? When have I let
Become myself a sorry pet
Of Gluttony? Each bite and swig
Have made me closer to a pig
Than human; how could one not
Contempt and execrate such bloat?

And when I've tried to find a way
To purify myself, to stray
From path, which obviously leads
To only furthering the needs
I've yet again been weak, like moth
Before the flame, - I longed for Sloth.

"Tomorrow", - was my best excuse.
Why was I trying to refuse
From doing anything required
If even was not really tired?
Sloth doesn't let me go away
From childhood to this very day.

The time have passed, and then just once
I've won the prize, and in long pounce
Not me, but Pride has took the place
Upon the pedestal's embrace
And even now, then I require
Sentence, it reads back, admires
And wants all others do the same,
And me to thirst for praise and fame.

Another one, who lurks inside,
Is Greed, and comes like raging tide
The urge to have, to bear, to wield...
It's nearly hopeless not to yield.
And when this wave has briefly passed,
You always know - it won't be last.

And next one is, of course, the Lust.
I'd kept it still inside, but must
Confess, that every passing day
It's growing harder to obey
The mind, and not the primal needs.
I've all my life preferred to heed
And now I know, that would be best
To not put others to the test.
Who could have wanted being loved
By man like me? So here I stand
Away from others: to protect
Them from me, and to recollect.
These memories are dust for them;
They worth much more than any gem
For me; a subtle touch,
a look, a whisper is like glass,
Like stone, unflinching; so bypass
It could only sight. So, that is left for me, is dream,
And I suppress this wordless scream
Each time I see another eyes,
And dancing beauty, which there lies.
Because it's like a whip, a blaze,
It's better to avert my gaze
And yet again return to bog,
Where I, quite overtly, belong.
But it won't help - in sleepless cold
These damning eyes, and words untold
Return again, like sparking stars,
Reminding of my prison's bars.

It doesn't help that I'm not blind
And all the hands, which intertwine
Remind me every once and then
That better not to leave my den.
But I cannot, for I'm addict
To some I know; so I restrict
Myself; yet Envy's foiled deck
Is full of trumps, so now my neck
Is in its hands; its hard to breathe,
But I don't have a place to leave.

The only sin I haven't yet
Discovered, is Wrath: his hunting net
I somehow managed to avoid.
And this, once more, makes me annoyed:
If only I have had this flame,
Then, maybe, I could harness, tame
Its power; but, alas, it's false
And I still can't approach my goals.

This trial goes forever on,
And every word hits like a stone,
But I cannot - and won't - object.
I've only verdict to expect.
Each witness testifies and leaves,
then prosecution takes up leads...
How do I want to leave this booth!
But I cannot run from the truth.
Well, prosecution has this one.
And I don't want to spoil the fun
For him... or better said, for us?
I like it too, this big demise,
I both have fear and feeling joy.
In hands of judgement I'm a toy,
But even if my end is nigh,
For me it's honor to comply.

At last, the sentence is now set
I close my eyes, and last regrets
Let go my mind, so weak and frail.
Impatience grows, my Holy Grail
Lays peacefully aside the judge.
The time has come to end this grudge.

I know for sure, what's in the blank,
But these last moments are like ankh -
Symbolic hope, marvelous sign...
But here, in this forgotten shrine
I am alone. So bring it in.
Let's put an end to all my sins.
And be it venom, noose or blade
I'll gladly face my end of fate.

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Nick wakes up after getting tranquilized. He’s surprised that he woke up inside the police car. He was cuffed at the back. Outside was dark probably night time and what appears to be the Rainforest District, and the car was parked in front of a large decrepit mansion overgrown by vines. Nick felt his head ache and heard a familiar voice.

Judy: “Are you ok now Nick?”

Nick sees the scarlet eyes of the vampire rabbit on the driver’s seat.

Nick: “Ok carrots what did you do?”

Judy: “What I just placed you back there.”

Nick: “Cuffed? So you bit me!? Am I gonna turn into a vampire!?”

Judy: “Nick calm down.”

Nick: “I can’t calm down!! I do not wanna live as a vampire!!”

Judy: “NICK!! CALM DOWN OR I’LL TAZER YOU!!!”

Nick sat down checking his neck for any bite marks. 

Bogo: “Is he finally awake?”

Nick looks over the windshield and see a buffalo on fire. It was Bogo but on fire!

Judy: “Yeah he’s up but I think the hallucinogenic is still in affect.”

Nick: “Hallucinogenic?”

Judy: “You don’t remember getting gassed?”

Judy explains that someone was creating hallucinogenics or fear toxins and intoxicated other animals. They were tasked today to arrest the criminal inside the building where he was holding up. The guy calls himself Scarecrow, even though it was just an animal in a costume. They did manage to get him but not after getting gassed. Alex and Nick were the only ones affected since their gas mask became faulty. 

Nick: “Ok I remember now.”

Judy: “So you see me as a vampire?”

Nick: “Yeah and chief as a flaming buffalo. So um, can you un-cuff me? it’s starting to get uncomfortable back here.”

Bogo: “Well as long as you can tell that it’s just the hallucinogenic making everything appear different then you’ll be fine to walk out. Try anything and I’ll put you back here.”

Nick: “Yeah, its just that everyone outside seems to appear…different.”

He looks outside the window and sees that everyone are monsters. That is some powerful hallucinogenic. Well as long as Nick doesn’t freak out or run away then its fine. He just need to keep his cool. Then a whistling wolf with a very large set of teeth came to greet them.

Alex: “Hey Nick you finally better?”

Nick: “Uh by the way I see you right now? No, no I’m not.”

Alex: “Well at least you’re not freaking out like Geno over there.”

Alex pointed out at the ambulance parked out where Geno is lying strapped on the cart, yelling out : “ALL OF YOU ARE ALIENS!! THE INVASION HAS BEGUN!! SOMEONE HELP!!”. They placed a nuzzle on his mouth to prevent him from bitting and screaming. Nick seriously doesn’t want that to happen to him.

Alex: “Man, I hope my partner is going to be ok.”

Judy: “Don’t worry, maybe he’ll snap out of it tomorrow.”

Alex: “I hope so.”

Nick: “I’m just glad I’m not in the same position as him right now.”

Judy: “That’s rude! Say sorry!”

Nick: “Ah! Sorry Alex!”

Alex: “Nah its ok I don’t want to be in the same position as him either. Hey how about this? Let’s record him yelling stuff and when he snaps out of it, we’ll show him the video.”

Nick: “You are not that least bit concerned about your partner huh?”

Alex: “As long as he’s kicking and screaming then he’s fine.”

They both laughed at their antics. Judy frowned on how Alex treats his partner. 

Nick: “So where is our Scarecrow?”

Bogo: “He just got arrested, before you and Alex started to go nuts.”

Judy: “You ran like crazy inside spouting strange things, while I was trying to dart you.”

Alex: “Same here, I was looking for Geno that entire time.”

Judy: “We had an ambulance called in after we got the both of you.”

Nick: “So why was I in the back of the car?”

Judy: “I was planning to take you to the hospital but I wondered if putting you to sleep was enough to get you back to normal.”

Nick: “Well I’m not one hundred percent alright, I’m still seeing things but I guess I can manage.”

Bogo: “Judy take your partner to the hospital, Alex stick with Geno. As for the time being I’m going back to the station.”

Nick: “Oh yeah, why did you trip me?”

Judy: “What do you mean?”

Nick: “You tripped me back there when I was running, what gives?”

Judy: “Oh that, you ran into a small coat rack and you rolled on the floor face planting on the wall then I rushed in and asked if your nose broke.”

Nick doesn’t know whether or not he should believe her, but given the situation there’s no way to prove it.

Nick: “And that thing when you made an adorable face?”

Judy: “I thought I could get you to come with me if did that.”

Nick: “After asking me to drink my blood?”

Judy: “Well you called me a vampire bunny, I thought I should play along and make myself look cute as a vampire.”

Nick: “One thing, vampires don’t do that.”

Judy: “Yeah they do.”

Nick: “You clearly need to watch some horror movies with me.”

Judy: “Uh no.”

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Everyone left the scene. Judy followed the ambulance in front, she notices Nick looking really terrible. 

Judy: “Are you ok Nick?”

Nick: “Well……….no.”

Judy: “Do you need something?”

Nick: “……..no.”

Judy: “Do I scare you?”

Nick: “What? No”

Judy: “Oh is it you’re afraid of vampires Nick?”

Nick: “Ha no. I’m just having a massive headache right now. And besides, you look rather cute with those red eyes.”

Judy: “Red eyes? Nick my eyes are purple.”

Nick: “I know, but with the hallucinogenic everything looks different.”

Judy: “So what can you see?”

Nick: “That everyone is a monster.”

Judy: “No I meant me.”

Nick: “Oh well for one you have red eyes, long eyelashes, and some fangs peaking out of you lips. You look quite the seductress.”

Judy blushed on his remark and decided to play it off, “Well at least for today I’ve become a predator, and I will drink your blood muhahahahahaha.”

Nick: “Hahaha, don’t push your luck cottontailand keep an eye on the road.”

Judy: “So to you I’m now a predator, it feels very strange but I kinda like the idea now. Fear me for I’am the vampire bunny muhahahaha!” Judy playfully waving her hand on Nick’s shoulder as he tries to wave it off.

Nick: “Hehe, you may have turned into a predator my sweet cottontail but remember that you are still my prey.”

Nick looked at Judy with a scary smile. Judy got creeped out.

Nick: “Ha! You should look at your face!”

Judy: “Don’t scare me like that!” She hits him on the shoulder.

Nick: “Keep an eye on the road then!”

Judy continues to drive, but she didn’t want the conversation to end.

Judy: “Were close to the hospital.”

Nick: “Great, I don’t want to keep seeing this spectacle all the time. Well except you, I kinda like seeing you as vampire.”

Judy: “If I ever do become one, then I’ll get you first.”

Nick: “Fine by me. I let you drink my blood if you ever need to, just don’t turn me into one.”

Judy: “I don’t think that’s how it works.”

Nick: “Then you should watch some horror movies with me then.”

Judy: “Again, no.”

Nick: “Haha, if you ever got gassed a few hours ago, I don’t think you’ll last seeing what I’m seeing.”

Judy: “So outside the window, you can see everyone as monsters?”

Nick: “Yeah……and I can also see myself on the reflection.”

Judy: “What do you see? And by that I mean your reflection?”

Nick: “I don’t think you want to know.”

Judy pulls up at the parking lot and got inside the hospital with Alex and Geno who is still strapped in struggling to get free. The nurses told the other two to go to another section of the hall. While Nick and Judy went into the opposite side. Heading into one of the empty rooms.

The doctor arrived and checked on Nick. She appeared something horrible to Nick’s eyes since he’s making a disgusted face. What could he be seeing the doctor as? She said the hallucinogenic will wear off in a couple of hours so there is no need to worry. 

Judy: “Well I’m glad there’s no bad side effect.”

Nick: “Me too.”

Judy: “I’ll be out and get us something to eat ok?”

Nick: “Sure, I’ll just wait here.”

Judy approached him and gave him a hug, “I’m glad you’re ok.”

Nick: “Thanks Judy.”

Judy leaves the room while Nick is in bed staring at the window seeing all kinds of strange things. Then his eyes adjusted looking at his reflection by the window. 

Nick: “How ironic, I became the thing I was scared off when I was a kid. ”

What he sees is something that he was used to be afraid off. The one thing that scared him when he was a kid now appears as his reflection staring back at him. 

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